Trip Lee: The Good Life

i am on a constant journey towards the good life alright. but not the one Trip Lee talked about tonight. I don't believe that God offers the good life. I don't want to follow God… I want to follow whatever it is in the moment that offers me a life that I have defined as good. which is…life where everyone loves me, and praises me for my awesomeness… where i don't suffer or struggle… where i don't' have to make money to live… where what i want is handed to me on a silver platter… where i don't have to leave my comfort zone… where i can be on constant adventure… where i can experience a constant emotional high… and there are a lot of things that keep OFFERING it. but nothing has delivered. i just constantly come up empty and wanting… left unfulfilled. and asking myself why that didn't work? and what will work better? i flagellate myself for not attaining the good life, hoping that will motivate me to figure it out and reach it…so this is my confession. LORD help my unbelief!